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Simple things like this make my day. I'm serious. Sometimes I feel like such a rotten or unwanted person, but when someone simply expresses apprectiation I feel a million times better!

Yes, I AM eating it

The Pepero I was planning on giving to someone, that is. While talking to my baby sister, we both concluded that the best thing is to not give him my Pepero. Instead, I am enjoying it. TAKE THAT all you Koreans and your Pepero day. No more "Mister Nice Girl"... I'm just gonna pretend like I don't even care XD

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don't worry, i'm not this emo in reality. i'm just trying to be poetic :]


i vow
to never act on my hearts desire
to never let myself be hurt again
to never care about how you see me
to never be as thoughtful as i can

because
when i care i am faced with rejection
when i care your words stick more than a tack
when i care i start to think i'm not enough
when i care i hardly receive it back

i'm lost
and i'm giving up
and i'm not turning back
and i'm not waiting for you
and i'm waiting for no one now

...yet

who will see me?
who will find me?
who will save me?
who will love me?

Pedro

As I was riding the bus back to school, I heard someone behind me say, "Excuse me miss, what are you reading?" I turned around to show them the book I was reading and explained that the title is The Dwarf, that it is a Korean book translated into English, and that I am reading it for one of my Korean classes. Then he told me that he had been to South Korea before. I replied and then went back to reading.

About a minute after I continued reading, he asked me another question, "Why are you taking Korean classes?" and I said that I am planning on moving there after college. He asked me why and I told him how I'd like to get a job with Korean Air... not necessarily as a stewardess-- I didn't explain to him about my whole passion of uplifting women or about my wanting to start a tea shop and my interest in North Korean refugees. But after I simply told him that I'd like to work in Korea, he was chuckling and said, "you are the most interesting person I've ever met." I was a little suprised. I smiled and laughed as I thanked him for the compliment.

I continued to read some more, and again, after a couple minutes of reading he asked me if I had ever been to Korea before. I said no, but that I am hoping to study there next year. He told me that he had been there with the Marine Corps. When he was on tour he said he saw swaztikas used in many places as a religious symbol. He kept failing at trying to explain it. Each time as he would start trying to explain the swaztikas he would pause, at a loss for words. Which happened many times throughout our whole conversation... he smelt like insence and kept acting overwhelmed when he would try to explain things and his eyes were pretty glazed over too......... hahaha.

We chatted for a little bit longer about subjects other than Korea. I liked his name. Pedro. Haha. I was surprised when he told me his name because he does not look like a Pedro to me. As he got off the bus he wished me luck while I'm in Korea.

Good luck to you too, Pedro!

The Reason for Me and My Little Kid Backpack

If any of you have ever wondered why I occasionally carry around a little kid backpack... Mark Lowndes is the reason why. He played for my DTS once and he had made his own box that you stomp on for percussion (no, it's not a "stomp box" it's a box you stomp on, just gotta make that clear)... and he carried said box in a little kid backpack. And it I thought it was the coolest thing ever.

When you watch this video, you will be able to see his home made stomping box on stage ^.^