보고싶어요. 정말요.
and I didn't think I would. 너무 힘들어요. :(

Katlyn sent me a letter

and I received it today. It was one of the most thoughtful things anyone has ever done for me. A couple weeks ago she said she had something for me. She also said that she knew I'd love it. So inside of her pen and ink written letter were a gold wax seal candle and stamp. Boy does she know me well! First of all, gifts is one of my top love languages. To me, the more thoughtful a gift is, the more you show me you love me. The reason it's so thoughtful is because I would use a wax seal to seal my letters and cards with. She remembered that small detail about me. Another reason it was so thoughtful is because of the things she wrote in the letter. She encouraged me with her words. She took the time to write it.. it took her two days since she had to let the front side dry before writing on the back side (and yes, it was TWO sides... she wrote THAT much!).

I wish people wrote more encouraging letters to eachother. You have no idea how much it can make eachother's days... you'll feel so great about encouraging someone and they will feel so great because someone actually cares about them.

In my hiding place

I'm sitting on my bathroom floor right now... seriously...
This is the place I come when I'm a mess. I sit here and let it all go. I usually bring in my Bible and journal when I know that I'll need them.

There are probably several reasons as to why I feel this way. But I can't shake how uncannily familiar my feelings are to how they were almost exactly a year ago. So weird.

Hopefully I'll be feeling better soon so that I can actually work on my homework.

And hugs will be very welcomed for when I see you next!

New fortunes...

From Bona

Mine: "To affect the quality of the day is no small achievement."
Michelle's: "Don't waste time on what might have been."
Lisa's: "Suspense is exciting. I hope it lasts."


Now I'm going to apply these into each of our lives.

As for me, I was having a really grumpy day at work on Tuesday. I was supposed work 4-7, but Joe wanted to switch his closing shift with mine. I agreed as long as there would be enough pearls and royal tea when I got in. There were, but I should have clarified that I need an extra batch of each since it is frustrating to have to make more during the middle of a closing shift....Not only that, but I found it really annoying when one of my coworkers kept talking over me, didn't communicate very clearly, therefore I accidentally started pouring a drink in the wrong cup, she said something very condescending to me, snatched the cup away, and threw it away. The rest of the night I was nearly fuming. I had a great day up until then. I kept trying to change my attitude, but it was hard. After thinking about it when I got home, I made up my mind to not let it ruin my whole day. This fortune will be something I must remind myself of whenever I run into this sort of circumstance. I so easily fall into a bad mood when I'm treated without respect. Lesson learned? Hopefully.

As for Michelle, well... one word: Lynne. I know you are upset about the turn of events. I only know your side of the story, but please know that it never helps to agonize over the past. However, I do see that have moved on somewhat since you don't talk about it so much now. If I may offer you advice, I'd say to be the better person. When you see her, just treat her like you would an old friend. It would come as a surprise. And who knows? Maybe she's not out to get you. I haven't seen her making a scene when she sees you.

As for Lisa, k,..... so obvious. You have boy drama goin' on like crazy. Like, how many boys can chase after one girl? I don't know. But you sure have a lot. And chose the nice one!!! AWWWW He will treat you with so much respect. But, of course, you are at the "suspenseful" stage. The stage where feelings have not officially been declared. And you freaking can't keep your mind off of him! We will just have to wait and see what happens.

I have been enjoying my fortunes as of late

Last Tuesday I got two fortunes from Bona:

1) "Your smile always brightens the cloudiest days." :D This one made me happy, especially when someone told me it was true :] Sigh, such a nice compliment.

2) "Doors will be opening for you in many areas of your life." Bring it... can't wait to see what happens! haha

and tonight, Wen bought some Kowloon for our study date and my fortune said:

"A great pleasure in [your] life is doing what others say you can't." And this one is just true of me. Question: What did my friends think was completely crazy for me to do?? Answer: Playing the electric guitar... and look at what happened, I freakin learned how to shred (but ask me to now and i can't since i just haven't done it in years, sorry for the let down folks)! hehehe And who was forced to be the last resort to try to make a free throw to win a tied bball game in 9th grade gym class? Me. And who was the only one to make the free throw and actually win the game?? Yours truly :]

Aaaaanyway. Nuff said. And I like fortune cookies.

:]